It's time...

 Well... after all these years, I finally took the step to see a psychiatrist to get properly evaluated (and medicated if needed) and to see a therapist. 

Diagnosis: general anxiety disorder, recurrent depression and ADHD

I knew about the anxiety years ago and recently had suspicions about the other two, so I wasn't really surprised when the psych told me. As part of the treatment, it was highly recommended I go to therapy for the depression. I know a really big part of it was past trauma that I haven't dealt with... some of it was probably the last two years being isolated. I learned this past week that I need that human connection and while yes I live with my family and love them very much... sometimes you need that interaction with people outside of the household. 

So yeah... that's a high level overview of what's been going on...